Depressive Control

It’s taking everything in me to not break down and cry.

I’m just so tired of this battle.

Drugs don’t work. I’m gaining weight. I feel like my life is a mess again. I have no motivation to do anything about it. I’m so scared about classes tomorrow. I want to go – I really do. Right now I don’t feel like I can go. I feel just so incredibly depressed.

And what’s worse is I feel like a failure for not being able to control it.

I feel bad that I’ve missed so much class that I feel like I can’t afford to miss any more. I honestly just don’t know what to do.

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One thought on “Depressive Control

  1. Hi Victoria, I haven’t dropped by in a while; fighting my own battles and very introverted… But I have a few words of encouragement for you. You are stronger than you think! You are so young and will not really appreciate how strong you are until you are middle aged or even older and look back at where you have come from! I’ve taken some of the same meds as you and yes, I had a tendency to overeat and put on weight, but you can take it off, when you are feeling better. Nothing stays the same. Everything changes, we change, we get better, we have tough times and we get better. Our life goes on, we change and we have a tough time and then we get better. I could go on but I think you get the drift….. Hang in there – things will get better! Sending you virtual hugs

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