Lessons

I’m trying to understand a lot of things right now.

Learn more about my surroundings and therefore myself in the process.

I am also learning to understand other people’s boundaries. Letting them put in some work as well as valuing myself.

This is coming to be a difficult thing for me. It takes a whole other level of respect and maturity. It’s going against all my impulses. It’s going with my gut to not act – which is the weirdest sensation. The timing hasn’t been right. I also don’t feel the need to constantly put myself into the fire before the fire’s burning.

I have made my intentions clear as day. I have made my whispered wishes blow into the wind. I have given it heart. I haven’t given it soul.

Part of me wonders if I give it my everything, will I be ready to pick up those pieces when they fall?

Another part of me knows I will throw everything down just to have a glimpse of what being there would be like.

But I can’t keep forcing my will upon others waiting for them to pick up the pieces when it falls. This is a hard lesson to learn.